Hey everyone,
I just wanted to let you all know that I might not get an update in until after I return from my trip to China and the upcoming holidays. Those of you who are competing in the Ultimate Fan Contest, that means you have more time to work on your entries. My guess is I won't be finishing the current chapter until well into the New Year, probably February, since my sister's wedding is in January, which means all my weekends are shot. I'll let you know the week before I'm ready to post the final page when the contest will end.
Now, as for an explanation of the title, I'm not going to go into detail, but I will simply say that life has been hell right now. It's been a huge combination of many things, but this weekend has been a waste for me, as I haven't been able to get myself off the couch our out of the house, save for church this morning (which I guilt tripped myself into going to).
There's so much going on in my life right now that I have this huge burden on my shoulders. The fact that, even when I get back from China, I will be spending Christmas Eve alone in this house 2 hours from the ones I love, just so that I can keep my promise to sing at the evening's service, has kept me from enjoying anything I normally love. Piled on top of that is some financial difficulties that have arisen; and despite help from my mother, I still feel like I'm in a hole I will never see the end of.
There's so much I wish I could explain to you all, but I have opted to keep most of the details to myself. I know many of you will wish me well, and tell me it's okay to wait to post anything, and I can't thank all of you enough for your love and support. I just thought you deserved the right to know that I may not get the updates done before I leave. All I know is this week is going to be torture, as my winter concert is on Thursday, and I need to be able to keep it together in front of my students, which is going to be a very difficult thing for me to do right now.
I love you all, and I hope to see you soon. If I don't post another journal before Thursday, I will see you all when I return.
All my love,
Anita
